He went out for cigarettes. That’s my
favorite detail of the story told by Ashley Smith. It was not a noble
calling; it wasn’t even a noble errand. But the craving for nicotine at
2 o’clock in the morning apparently led Smith into the loaded gun of one
Brian Nichols, a man who was wanted for raping one woman and murdering
another woman and three men. According to Smith, Nichols forced her into
her apartment, tied her up, put her in the bathtub and told her, “I’m
not going to hurt you if you just do what I say.”
What would you do under those
circumstances? Scream? Panic? Beg? But at that point, something else
intervened. Smith actually communicated with her captor. She says she
saw him not as a monster but as a human being. She talked with him. She
told her story--how her husband had been stabbed in a dispute and had
died in her arms, how she then had developed a drug habit, had been
caught for speeding and drunken driving, had been arrested for assault
(the charges were dropped), had ceded custody of her young daughter to
her aunt. She showed him her wounds as a human being. And she saw in
that man his own wounded soul.
It would be politically correct to
describe that encounter as a spiritual one. But it seems to me it was
more than that. It was, in the minds and souls of both human beings, an
encounter with God. Smith’s weapon, it appears, was a hugely popular
book, The Purpose Driven Life, by Rick Warren, an unabashedly Christian
guide to making it through life’s highs and lows by constantly asking
what God has intended for you. The book is indeed a powerful
one--precisely because it insists on the notion that God knows all of us
intimately, especially sinners. Smith says she read from chapter 33,
which centers on the role of Christian service, on the idea that in
every moment there is a chance to serve others. “You can tell what they
are by what they do” is one of the chapter’s inscriptions from Matthew’s
Gospel.
Smith, blessed by what can only be
called grace, saw that terrifying early morning in suburban Atlanta as
one of those opportunities. Warren writes in that chapter, “Great
opportunities to serve never last long. They pass quickly, sometimes
never to return again. You may only get one chance to serve that person,
so take advantage of that moment.” Smith did. By her account, she talked
to him, made breakfast, told him her story, listened. And as she
revealed her openness to grace, so, apparently, did he. “He said he
thought I was an angel sent from God and that I was his sister and he
was my brother in Christ and that he was lost, and God led him right to
me,” Smith said. Maybe he was right.
We latch onto this story not just
because it’s a riveting end to a high-stakes manhunt. We find ourselves
transfixed and uplifted by the sordid ordinariness of it all. He was an
alleged rapist and murderer. She was tied up in a bathtub, clinging to
the wreckage of a life that was barely afloat. One was a monster, the
other a woman unable to care for her 5-year-old, looking for cigarettes
in the dark. And out of that came something, well, beautiful. He saw his
purpose: to serve God in prison, to turn his life around, even as it may
have been saturated in the blood and pain of others. She saw hers: to
make that happen. These people weren’t saints. Grace arrives,
unannounced, in lives that least expect or deserve it.
I say that as a believer. The crimes
Nichols is suspected of are inexcusable. The serenity of Smith is close
to inexplicable. But the message of the Gospels is that God works with
the crooked timber of human failure. That was an exceptional moment of
redemption. But every day we have smaller, calmer chances to turn
another’s life around, to serve, to listen. How often do we simply not
see what is in front of us? How often do we believe that the world’s
evils--from terrorism to crime to emotional cruelty--are beyond our
capacity to change? Or that there is no one in front of us whom we can
serve? Smith and Nichols’ story is a chastening reminder that we may be
wrong.
There’s a line in a Leonard Cohen
song that has always stayed with me. It kept me going in a bleak moment
in my life, when I thought, as we all sometimes do, that I couldn’t see
how good could come out of the dreck I had turned my life into. “Forget
your perfect offering,” Cohen advises. “There is a crack in everything.
That’s how the light gets in.” Happy Easter.
Printed in Time Magazine, March 28,
2005
YOUR NEXT STEP AT VINEYARD BOISE
At least three times a year we offer a three step
opportunity for you to move deeper into God’s grace and purpose for your
life here at Vineyard Boise:
Alpha
First comes Alpha. Alpha is for everyone, and people come
for a variety of reasons. Some want to investigate whether God exists or
if there is any point to life; others are concerned about what happens
after death. Still others have attended church on and off all their
lives but feel they have never really understood the basics of the
Christian faith. If you want to see what Alpha is all about, join us at
an introductory night to Alpha tonight at 6 p.m. The next 7 week Alpha
course starts on Sunday, May 15. We will have dessert, laughter and lots
of opportunity for debate and discussion. Childcare will be available.
For more info, sign up on today’s v-mail or at the Community Outreach
Counter in Heritage Hall.
Purpose Driven Life
Immediately following Alpha, we offer a Purpose Driven
Life class here at the church. This is a seven week course on Sunday
nights at 6 p.m., and the next class will start on July 10. This class
explores the truths presented in Rick Warren’s best selling book,
Purpose Driven Life. Having explored the basic questions about God,
life, and Christianity, Purpose Driven Life is the perfect follow-up as
we take a look at the five great purposes God has for each of us.
Childcare is available. You can sign up for the next Purpose Driven Life
class at the Community Outreach Counter in Heritage Hall.
Vineyard 101 – Welcome to the family
This is our membership class here at Vineyard Boise. On
four consecutive Wednesday nights you will learn who we are and where we
are going as a church. You get a guided tour of the facilities, insight
into the inner workings of the church, and the opportunity to see the
blessings of belonging to the Vineyard Boise family. The last night of
Vineyard 101 includes communion, a special gift (an NIV Bible with the
Vineyard Boise logo), baptism for those who wish it, and the opportunity
to “sign on” as a member of the Vineyard Boise family. Our next Vineyard
101 starts on Wednesday, April 27 at 7 p.m. Childcare is provided. You
can sign up for Vineyard 101 at the Info counter in Heritage Hall or on
today’s v-mail.